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When Life is Life-ing

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For the past four years, I’ve been trying to heal my attachment wounds.

Self-help podcasts, books, positive affirmations, therapy. Long walks where I overanalyze conversations I’ve had. You know… the whole healing starter pack.

I genuinely thought I was making progress and maybe I was.

The thing no one really tells you about healing attachment issues is that it’s easy to think you’ve healed when there’s no one around to trigger the parts of you that needed healing in the first place.

You’re calm…You’re grounded…You’re secure

Then you start dating someone and suddenly your nervous system is like, “Remember that thing we said we worked through? Surprise!” It’s almost comical lol.

One minute you’re thinking, “Wow, look at all this growth.” The next you’re mentally hitting the eject button because your brain has convinced you of abandonment.

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Finding Purpose in Life

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Throughout my PA education, I always knew I wanted to work in addiction medicine which was rooted in personal connections to those who battled with addiction.

After graduating, I struggled to find a position in addiction medicine that was open to new grads. I eventually accepted a job in a different specialty, and although I enjoyed the specialty, I felt in my spirit “This is not it.”

I wasn’t passionate and I didn’t feel a sense of fulfillment. I was just going through the motions. Thankfully, a year and a half later, two relocations, and countless moments of uncertainty, I finally found myself back in the work that feeds my spirit.

Recently, I attended a conference that reminded me why I chose this path. I listened to Dr. Stephen Loyd, the addiction medicine king of Tennessee, speak with such raw passion about his journey and the work he does. I left the conference feeling inspired. Inspired to be a better provider, to be a better person. I felt grateful to have found one of my purposes in life, to help marginalized communities and those who often are forgotten by society.

That experience got me thinking…how does one truly find their purpose in life?

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